You have to wonder about life, and the things that it takes to make it up.  What does it all mean? I enjoy playing the Sims, and when I play I wonder how much of it is really how life is. The goal in life is to gain all this knowledge and skills just to have your moment in life end. Is "God" really some person on the other side of a computer screen playing "sims"? When he gets boared with me and my family will we just end, and he will move on to play with another family? Silly I guess to think that way. Thats not what my grandma taught me. But I have an insatiable curiosity and I tend to question everything. But I don't know that it is a bad thing. I learn something new every day. Im proud of that. As long as you are learning you are growing.

  As a homeschooler, I also question the educational requirements. History for example, to a certain point its useful. It;s important to know where we came from. But when you get to the part that is just scientists guessing at what happened based on some fossils, or a mummy, then I have to wonder how relevant is it? It's not proven fact, its scientific theories. "We think this guy was a king because he had a diamond and a ruby inside his mummy tomb. But when my grandfather died we put things inside his coffin with him, in a million years when people see the jar with the kidney stone he liked to show off, or the wedding band on his hand, or the $100 dollar bill in his pocket will they think he was rich because he had these things? People do things for the daed that they wouldn't ordinarily do, or be able to afford to do, because it is your last chance to ever do anything for them. It's a token of the love you may have never shown in life. It's the end of them, and maybe you went to an extreme you wouldn't have otherwise. That doesn't make them rich. My grandfather was a dirt farmer who always said he dreamed of the day he could walk around with a 100.00 bill in his pocket all the time. Now he can. What will future people see when they excavate his fossil? My point is, that they are teaching kids things as fact, when they cant prove it to be fact. So all my kids really know is a group of people thought this is what happened.

  Science, I can see its relevance. It's those guesses and theories that have made such progress in medicine. and life span, and traveling to the moon. Theories change, and we evolve and become better for having the knowledge. But history is unchangeable, its the past, its guessing at things you will never know for sure happened the way you think they did.

   I don't really know what life is all about, I still have this school girl fanatasy about one day the things I say ending up on a web site for famous quotes, or my art hanging in a gallery somewhere near Van Gogh, or some other significant thing that says "hey i was here" , and I guess when that time comes i will somewhere thanking historians for noticing me. But for now I just don't completely get it.

Have a great day...