a funky place in life and son joining military


It's bee n a while since my last blog post and all I can say about it is that it's been a funk place in life for me. Since my last post I have become the mom of 2 children in their twenties, and one pushing it. This has been a bit depressing for me. Not because I am getting older, that has never been an issue for me. I remember mama crying when she turned 40, but for me, Im glad God see's fit to let me turn another year older. For me its more about the fact that I have devoted myself entirely to my children, even to the point of neglecting my husband, and now I have to fully reinvent myself because they no longer need me as much and I don't know what to do with myself. Im getting the hang of it. But it's been a challenge for me.


I've kept myself busy with cutting decals, and painting rocks, and netflix binging. But I still think I need to "make something of myself". If I had a dollar for every time my parents used that term and I thought I had made something of myself. I had made myself the best mom I knew how to be. But I see what they were talking about now. I don't believe my choices in life were wrong. I raised great kids. Flawed as any human will be. But good people, that people want to know, and associate with. But now.. Who am I?


My oldest son is 19, and has graduated High School now, and is pursuing a career as a marine. I want him to chase his dreams, and go out there and try things, and learn things, and become someone great. I will never discourage his joining the marines, I think the time spent away from hometown USA would be good for him, everyone should broaden their horizons. But some recent decals I've been asked to make have me really second guessing myself on that.


I have made 3 In memory of decals for lost soldiers, and have met a young man who is home now from military service from an injury that will affect him for the rest of his life. It's crazy how the military was non-existent in my world, and now my child is considering joining and it's all in my face, and scary..

Here are a couple of the In memory of military decals I made, I forgot to take pictures of the third, but if you will notice the ages of the fallen soldiers, the third was in that same range, which is the same age range as my boy.


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fallen army soldier decal

I don't know how a mother manages a loss like this, and I fer a little that I may learn. I pray even now before he is a military man that I never know what these women suffer. But that fear lingers.


On the flip side tho, I have also cut a decal recently for a soldier who retired unscaithed and is proud of is time served. here is the decal I cut for him, as a fathers day gift from his wife.

retired navy military decal sticker

So this is a plus to it all. His family or 10 is constantly on vacation, and living the life, and if this is the outcome of my sons enlistment then its worth it. I want him to be financially stable. But, I fear that other outcome.

God, and the universe, and life, have given me a lot to think about, not that the choice in this is mine. But I know what to pray for, and I will.. I will pray so hard that God gives my son the life he deserves and for a longtime if he sees fit.

I realize that death isn't just limited to those in military service. I realize that it could knock on any of our doors at any moment. Infact just this year 3 of the people my children grew up with have passed away in their late teens or 20's, and one is right now in critical condition, they all took the opposite route and chose a life of drugs that led them to their demise, and I think given the choice id rather my child die a hero, than a druggie. But I don't want to choose a way for my child to die. I want them to outlive me. Sigh... A mothers worries...

Anyone interested can visit my Etsy shop by clicking here, I do not have the in memory of decals listed but if you need that or any other custom decal I will do my best to meet your needs, just send me a message through etsy describing what you are looking for in a decal.

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#amothersworries
#momlife
#armynavyairforcemarines
#beallthatyoucanbe







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a funky place in life and son joining military


It's bee n a while since my last blog post and all I can say about it is that it's been a funk place in life for me. Since my last post I have become the mom of 2 children in their twenties, and one pushing it. This has been a bit depressing for me. Not because I am getting older, that has never been an issue for me. I remember mama crying when she turned 40, but for me, Im glad God see's fit to let me turn another year older. For me its more about the fact that I have devoted myself entirely to my children, even to the point of neglecting my husband, and now I have to fully reinvent myself because they no longer need me as much and I don't know what to do with myself. Im getting the hang of it. But it's been a challenge for me.


I've kept myself busy with cutting decals, and painting rocks, and netflix binging. But I still think I need to "make something of myself". If I had a dollar for every time my parents used that term and I thought I had made something of myself. I had made myself the best mom I knew how to be. But I see what they were talking about now. I don't believe my choices in life were wrong. I raised great kids. Flawed as any human will be. But good people, that people want to know, and associate with. But now.. Who am I?


My oldest son is 19, and has graduated High School now, and is pursuing a career as a marine. I want him to chase his dreams, and go out there and try things, and learn things, and become someone great. I will never discourage his joining the marines, I think the time spent away from hometown USA would be good for him, everyone should broaden their horizons. But some recent decals I've been asked to make have me really second guessing myself on that.


I have made 3 In memory of decals for lost soldiers, and have met a young man who is home now from military service from an injury that will affect him for the rest of his life. It's crazy how the military was non-existent in my world, and now my child is considering joining and it's all in my face, and scary..

Here are a couple of the In memory of military decals I made, I forgot to take pictures of the third, but if you will notice the ages of the fallen soldiers, the third was in that same range, which is the same age range as my boy.


No automatic alt text available.


fallen army soldier decal

I don't know how a mother manages a loss like this, and I fer a little that I may learn. I pray even now before he is a military man that I never know what these women suffer. But that fear lingers.


On the flip side tho, I have also cut a decal recently for a soldier who retired unscaithed and is proud of is time served. here is the decal I cut for him, as a fathers day gift from his wife.

retired navy military decal sticker

So this is a plus to it all. His family or 10 is constantly on vacation, and living the life, and if this is the outcome of my sons enlistment then its worth it. I want him to be financially stable. But, I fear that other outcome.

God, and the universe, and life, have given me a lot to think about, not that the choice in this is mine. But I know what to pray for, and I will.. I will pray so hard that God gives my son the life he deserves and for a longtime if he sees fit.

I realize that death isn't just limited to those in military service. I realize that it could knock on any of our doors at any moment. Infact just this year 3 of the people my children grew up with have passed away in their late teens or 20's, and one is right now in critical condition, they all took the opposite route and chose a life of drugs that led them to their demise, and I think given the choice id rather my child die a hero, than a druggie. But I don't want to choose a way for my child to die. I want them to outlive me. Sigh... A mothers worries...

Anyone interested can visit my Etsy shop by clicking here, I do not have the in memory of decals listed but if you need that or any other custom decal I will do my best to meet your needs, just send me a message through etsy describing what you are looking for in a decal.

#lifeontheplantation
#amothersworries
#momlife
#armynavyairforcemarines
#beallthatyoucanbe







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